darkhistory85

Letter to the man

2009-06-23T18:24:31Z

my smile is trapped in paradise
Between killing you and watching you die
until i find that place
i may never be happy
your existence pisses me off
i cant believe that i was created from such a fool
with an ideology so far up his ass
if its not a fly wanting to taste his bullshit
he is insulted
while i just wish i never met you

Ugh
You suck
You're no man
You're a bitch

11:45 Phone call

2006-05-26T18:23:12Z

this mofo got the nerve to call me the day after we WERE suppose to do some shit. Mind you i got no phone call, no email, no telepathic message saying that we couldnt hang out. Mind you again that the only reason i looked foward to comming home was to see her punk ass. Now she has made sure that wouldnt be possible. She called me like everything was cool, i cant believe that shit. I told her everything i had to say and she still aint said nothing. Got the nerve to apologize a day late. Fuck her. My feelings for her are scraping the bottom of the barrell. I can no longer trust her with my feelings. So i will have to do her like i do everyone else, cut them off and down. You make me feel like shit, ill make you wish you were dead. I take my feelings very personal. Ill be damned if i let someone manipulate them and not feel the fury of me realizing that. I gave it to her ass but she aint even felt the best of it. She will not sleep properly untill i want her too. I will make sure her days are as fucked as mine was yesterday and is today after she messed it up. And just think i woke up in a good mode because i was over her.

From the darkest of dark

2006-05-26T02:16:21Z

I stayed longer than i had to for this BITCH
and you know this motherfucker got the nerve to not even call.
I dont give a fuck what happened, if you not dead you could have at least called and said that it wasnt going to work out today. Instead you have my anticipation on the same level as my desires. When i get neither, you best to believe that i am going to be a heated beast. I could literally destroy your world just to bring a smile to my face right now and not feel sad about it. I literally waited all day in hopes to see your punk ass. I dont give a fuck if you see this either, fuck your explaination, fuck whatever happen, the only thing you fucking care about is your motherfucking pathetic ass. This shit is comming from the heart right now because you dont understand what it took for me to even stay here, let alone wanting to still be with you. I dont wish you would die but you would almost have to in order to feel my fustration. Dont say my name and dont fucking speak to me unless you wanna loose half your life.
FUCK YOU BITCH!!!
O yeah, and i mean that in the most sincere/respectful way. There aint shit you can do to not make me feel like im feeling right now. You better pray that i wake up tomorrow with a different attitude. I know i hopw i don because i dont want you ass on my mind for that long.

Heaven

2006-05-23T20:15:28Z

heavens lost its purpose
no one looks foward to going to a place no one know
but everyone goes
supposedly its intentions are to separate the strong from the weak
but i seen the error in your fallacy
we are all the same people because everyone sins
that excuse was just a classist way to make it so the church could make a profit
playing off peoples will to survive
hope after death is all a lie
the worlds religions have made trillions
and taken the lives of billions
all for the a destiny that is unproven
heaven can be yours, all you need is faith; if you choose it.

What you caused

2006-05-23T20:08:40Z

i peeped your style
you arrested development
lost your education in the process
loosing everyone around you because you abused there time
and im not just talking about mine
silence is your crutch
your a a bitch to unorganized thought
people are cataloged by how much you can get from them
then shelved by points of reference to the nearest fools
your lines of what you are about dont work because like i told you
your actions show that your words arent worthy of the work of your tongue
tried to hard to enunciate
victim of your own guiltiness
i hope you realize everything that you'll miss
but you wont cause your contacts are just suppliments to sight
open your eyes and realize the demise
your nervousness in relationships caused

Gone yet still not forgotten but trying

2006-05-23T20:00:25Z

O my feelings tell me not to take you back
but my dreams are more than patiently waiting for my heart to say the word
its difficult to replace my thoughts of you with something more extravegant
im going to have to preoccupy myself with another life to get over what you have done with mine

piece of shit

2006-05-23T19:58:08Z

who did you say you were
i have no recollection of us being an item
you see its safer for me to remember you as never existing
so since i dont know you
you can get the fuck out my face
cause you dont mean shit to me

Holding on no more

2006-05-23T19:55:40Z

im holding on to you because i havent said all that i wanted to say. Telling you wasnt enough so im going to tell the world. i was being a little bitch when it came to trying to make your day.
Hypocrite ass motherfucker
the shit that you tried to show me that you claimed was true was only temporarily yours
you took me out of my game only because what i was talking about hadnt happened yet
Now that is has i see the bitch in you
You'll hid behind everyone elses problems not to fight yours head on
help yourself get a clue before you invest in something thats not yours
you ran away from the silence you live in thinking it wasnt gonna talk to me
absense of noise doesnt mean that the message is deleted
it means it comes to me in a more clearer way
since you disguise your intentions behind words
actions are full pledged bitch
i cant believe i was talking about giving a life to someone who doesnt even understand theirs
that shit makes me want to beat your ass for wasting 21 years of your life and 4 years of mine
i proved that perfection was not yours to attain because traditionally you are a punk pussy ass fucker that obsesses on time
now wonder your the size that you are
you dont understand what it takes to keep things fit
you better hope i dont see you
especially after all that i did for you
cause if i do i may just be the last thing you remember
and from your position thats not where you wanna be.
Bitch